Sometimes I forget the advantages early risers get.

Spending spring break in Arkansas.
Away from the bleak snow, and to the paradise of above the scientific point of freezing.
But I thought I would feel more excited than I do.

If you don't have a cork screw, it might be a better idea to go with the boxed wine.

Several screws of different lengths (from electrical outlets, light switch, and the closet door handle), scissors, paper clips, and a can opener. After a lesson on using your resources, half an hour later, finally a pop.

as i lie in pieces

I don't write anymore because I'm afraid of what I'll say. I'm afraid of how much sense I'll make to myself. And I'm afraid of telling people what I really think, and I'm afraid of them knowing.

I'm afraid of becoming shallow if I haven't already, if I wasn't ever in the first place. People can already see through me.
Everything good that comes along, before it can run it's natural course and screw itself up, I take the initiative and do it myself. Why not make things a little worse for myself, a little more misery can't make too much difference.

I can feel myself changing into something even I wouldn't give sympathy to.

maybe i am a hopeless case

I watched the season premiere of LOST last night. I don't see how much further they can get with the story, it's getting to the point of overstretched.

I started my work study job yesterday at the day care center on campus. Woke up at 6:30 for the first time since the last time I actually went to church. I was surprised at how awake and with it I was, it's been like that all week. I think it's the feeling of actual motivation. Maybe it'll wear off soon. I'm kind of enjoying it for now.

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